E.G.O.I.S.T.

Only One (BoA english cover)

7.30.2012 // 11:23 PM

Though we've grown so far apart now, you're the only one Though I'm freeing you from all your bounds, you're the only one Though I barely have the strength to say it, goodbye From the bottom of my cold heart, you're the only one It's a once in a lifetime feeling You can never fall in love again for the first time It's the one you can't ever forget completely In the back of your mind you'd always be holding on All the butterflies, the hushed sighs and our heartbeats quickening But not even you could save me from my demons deep within I don't want you to blame yourself for my self-inflicted sorrow And I know it hurts more than you show So I'll let you go Though I try so hard to move on, you're the only one Though it hurts so much that you're gone, you're the only one Though I barely have the strength to say it, goodbye From the bottom of my cold heart, you're the only one To me, you've always been a good friend And I treasure every single moment spent All of the little things you and I did, kept me from breaking down But what did I know? I loved you so I couldn't overcome my fears I don't want to be the one who stands between you and your dreams For so long I've been a burden, it's not how I want us to be I don't want to be the one to hold you back from everything coz You're the best thing I've ever known But it's over Though I try so hard to move on, you're the only one Though it hurts so much that you're gone, you're the only one Though I barely have the strength to say it, goodbye From the bottom of my cold heart, you're the only one If someday you find someone new, I wish you love I will slowly block the thoughts of you no matter how hard But you'll always be a part of me wherever you are When I feel that wound in my heart, it's no memory, you're still in me

I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS.

6.14.2012 // 4:51 AM

I do. I really really do. And lately I haven't been able to channel it so well. Most are the same as problems before, insecurity, lack of ability, being a perfectionist, failing at being a perfectionist, distracted, feeling of incompetence, stressed, confusion etc. But if there's one thing I've always loved about myself or been proud of, it's that I know how to rise back up unscathed. I am strong-willed though sensitive, so life nor I can ever keep me down too long. Bwahahahaha.

The One that Got Away

1.21.2012 // 10:01 PM

Our English professor read to us this poem. She asked for a volunteer to read it to class again, and I wanted to but I didn't, lest my voice breaks and someone figures out what it means to me. But I'm posting it anyway :3

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Seven Years, Later, Driving Home
by Justine U. Camacho

It is impossible to fall in love again
for the first time
The first blush, the heart quickening,
racing madly with a secret
these things happen only once
Yesterday, in the car,
only half-listening to a song,
I remembered.
And in my mind, I turned around.
If I had known that I would never
see you again.
If I had known that afternoon in August,
I would have stayed rooted there.
Watching you.
Nineteen yet and dreamy.
I felt the years deaden me, one by one.
And all the headlamps around me blurred.
It was so sweet,
even to feel
that wound again.

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6.03.2010 // 12:00 AM

i'm so tired of this. :c

orange hair ~

4.30.2010 // 8:12 PM

Labels: avii photo, hair, happiness, style, vain

if we ever meet again

3.26.2010 // 8:45 PM

What’s somebody like you, doing in a place like this?
Say did you come alone, or did you bring all your friends?
Say what's your name, what you drinkin,
I think I know what you're thinking.
Baby what’s your sign?
Tell me yours, I’ll tell you mine.
Say what’s somebody like you, doing in a place like this?
(1, 2, 3, come on!)

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (say if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)

Oohh, oohh say if we ever meet again

Do you come here much? I swear I’ve seen your face before. (beforeee, yeah)
Hope you don’t see me blush, but I can’t help but want you more, more.
Baby tell me what’s your story, I ain’t shy and don’t you worry.
I’m flirting with my eyes, wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? I gotta see your face some more.
Some more cause baby I,

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (say if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again, I’ll have so much more to say. (if we ever meet again)
If we ever meet again, I won’t let you go away. (if we ever meet again)
If we ever, ever meet again, I’ll have so much more to say. (if we ever meet again)
If we ever, ever meet again, I won’t let you go away.

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (say if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (said if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night
Don't ever let me go.
I’ll never be the same (say if we ever meet again)

<3 <3 <3

Labels: katy perry, ksy, lyrics, quotes, youtube

my sweetie

3.22.2010 // 4:58 AM