I had found this written in my diary. Actually there was only a short version, but it was so sweet I decided to rewrite it over 2 years later. :) Please view it as a literary work, and not an actual diary entry because like I said it's been years.
If I keep loving you like this, I'll never find someone else, especially now that you've raised the bar so high.
No, CONCEITED, it's not because you're goodlooking, not because you're smart.
It's not because girls swoon at the sight of you, not because you're stylish.
Heck, you're not even really that good in singing, and let's face it, you can't really dance either.
But none of the good or the bad stuff matters, because what DOES is how you, yourself, made me feel.
. . . To be honest I don't even really remember who you are, who you were or who I was, anymore.
But I do remember how you made me feel.
What if I never find someone else, because of this, because of what I'm saying now?
They'll never understand, right?
Then again, I don't love you just because I'm hoping you'll keep your promise to come back.
Not because I found out too late how I really felt about you.
Not because everyone else knew about us before I did.
I'm not stupid
so let's just say I love you, and that's it.
I love you...in a different way from how I will love my future husband who is somewhere out there right now.
Someone who accepts that you'll always have a special place in my heart, no matter what, but that I'll always put HIM before YOU because I love him MORE.
and I WILL love him more.
So much more.
I will have children with that man (or woman? haha kidding.)
I will (attempt to) cook for that man, I will kick him off the bed every morning if he's too lazy to wake up, and I will sleep next to him every night without even a single thought of you.
And then maybe one day we'll bump into each other, and you can be happy for me and my future seobang, just as I'll be happy for you and your future wifey.
i talk like this 'coz i can back it up he walks like this 'coz he can back it up we got big egos! <3
04.19.90 - 4'11" - 102lbs -
- MC/J&K Int'l/DLS-CSB CA/HRM/MusicProd
- performer.writer.lyricist.artist.
- MUSIC.soccer.ichigo.kitties.aminals.photos.
- s.korea.alaska.hongkong.taiwan.philippines.
- crazy.sassy.trippy.ADHD.natural high.
- i'm sorry for treating you like this. i can't help it. i'm just crazy. but i DO love you. you make me want to be a better person. ^_^
- failing is learning. never say never. <3
here.nomakeup.idon'tmind.:)
